If somebody told me, like 5 years ago, that the current status would be my life, I would have only not believe him, but also call him crazy, insane, a total numbnut.
But it is the way it is.
Things change. Things become weird. Uplifting and sad at the same time.
Me and my girlfriend finally descided to get married, next year, expand the life we've shared, with new goals and dreams. You know. House, Kids n stuff. For that matter I am happy, but worried as well, seeing myself often as not fit enough. Yet, probably the best thing is just to keep it coming, that's how life is suppost to be lived, right?
And the job I now have for half a year, pays off really well. No more worries about the cash, always enough money to live without the worries of maybe not having enough left at the end of the month... but it also kinda eats me up, I have to admit...
I work for about 10 up to 14 hours a day, five days a week. There is no time for anything. I sleep 4 to 5 hours per night, and one and a half hour is just driving to and back from work. So you see, why there weren't a lot of pictures lately. Also I kinda don't feel the creativity running through me. I had blockades before and long phases of not creating but in this cas, it is really a total phase of no creativity and urge whatsoever. My back is killing me recently and the smells of the garbage I drive around burn my tastebuns all the way.
The loss of my good friend and soulmate, Streiben was a last nail in the coffin to happyness. Life goes on, still I have no Idea where to head with all this.